cool summer breeze

Bryant Park on a cool summer night - I took these photos at the end of May and am now realizing how shockingly fast my hair grows. I've recently dyed it a darker shade of brown to suit my seemingly unstoppable, incurable obsession with becoming older. Slowly getting over the initial shock, I think I like it better this way for now... sort of planning on growing it uber long again and pretending like Rick Owens is my older brother.

My favorite snack at Southwest Porch - buttered parmesan popcorn. Cheap but good eats!

Outfit details: Yigal Azrouel cardigan, mongolian lamb fur vest, T by Alex Wang long sleeve tee, Miu Miu otk suede boots, self-made body chain, Wolford tights, Chanel bag. All of these pieces might be some of my favorite items in my closet thrown into one outfit. If I had it my way, and the weather would allow me to do so, I'd wear a uniform similar to this every day so that I wouldn't have to think... who said that the homogeneous look of the future had to be moon boots?



It had been a really long time since I had food as good as my dinner at Mélisse in Santa Monica and it was really at the brink of where I had almost lost touch of the sensation of eating something that tastes... transcendent. I wish you all could have gone on this food journey with me but I hope that these photos give you a little glimpse of the experience I had while dining here.

Just a little amuse-bouche: concord grapes done two ways.

A fantastic assortment of delicious bread - highlights of this platter: bacon focaccia and my personal favorite, basil brioche.

Orange gelée, fennel flan, and cashew foam. Sounds a bit strange but the flavors actually worked really well together!

Lobster bolognese made with fresh cappelini, black truffle foam, and basil.

Seasonal vegetable salad with burrata cheese, pomegranate vinaigrette, and roasted mushroom emulsion. How beautiful is the addition of edible flowers to this dish? It's all in the little details.

My truffle crusted dover sole was brought out on the skillet it was cooked in and then was expertly de-boned at the table. I was really impressed by the steady hand of the waiter that plated up my dish, hands that would make any surgeon envious. It's interesting how the theatrics of fine dining are so much a part of the entire experience and it's often really hard to capture that aspect of the meal in pictures or words.

Truffle crusted dover sole with potato gnocchi and king oyster mushrooms. The potato gnocchi were so delicious, I sort of went weak in the knees every time I took a bite.

Roasted Jidori chicken with pot au feu of spring vegetables

An unforgettable side dish - potato mousseline. I can honestly still remember both the taste and texture of these potatoes and think about it from time to time. This dish is so rich, you aren't quite sure if butter or the potato is the main ingredient but they do it so well here, it's incredibly light and melts in your mouth in the most spectacular way. I love when a dish with practically only two ingredients and a bit of salt is more memorable than the rest.

To my delight, they brought out little mini cannelés after we were done with our meal even though we had to turn down ordering dessert from being so full. I couldn't think of a more perfect way to have ended this meal!



Outfit details: white blouse from Intermix, Current/Elliott denim tiedye shorts, Balenciaga sandals, Rag & Bone jacket, Chanel bag

Photos from an awesome abandoned old movie theater I came across while wandering around Coronado Island - this place somewhat reminded me of a few scenes from one of the best films I've seen in the past year, Inglourious Basterds. Remember how beautiful Mélanie Laurent looked in that red dress?

On a side note.. I feel like I'm going through a quarter-life crisis. Sometimes I wish I could wake up and be 30 already - your 20s can be really trying.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.

Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."

The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.

To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.
My soul is lost without her.

As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.

The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.

I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.

Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she once
belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and oblivion so long.

Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.

Pablo Neruda


The boy and I randomly pulled over to stretch out our legs and get some air on our way to Coronado Island - only in California can you make a random unplanned pit stop and encounter a view like this all for yourself. I kind of wanted to stick a flag on top of that little mound of a hill and claim it as my very own.

Of course the first thing we do once we actually get to Coronado is eat - nothing quite like a cold cerveza on a breezy summer day and a pile of freshly made tortilla chips and refreshingly spicy salsa.

Lobster burrito - slippertail lobster filled with peppers, onions, pinto beans and topped with salsa verde, red chile and jalapeno cheese sauce.

Grilled swordfish tacos on flour tortillas with cabbage, and salsa fresca.


george's at the cove

The boy and his lovely family took me out for my official birthday dinner at George's at the Cove in La Jolla and it was really a night to remember! Great company, copious bottles of red wine, perfectly fresh California cuisine, a spectacular view of the sunset, and of course, birthday presents!

My favorite thing about George's is how they've split up their restaurant into three separate dining experiences. California Modern on the first floor where I ate has an entire wall that faces the ocean made of glass so you can look out and enjoy a breathtaking view of the ocean while eating your meal comfortably indoors - perfect to accommodate chilly California nights when you still want to feel like you're eating outdoors. The more casual second and third floor bistro and bar are also equally lovely and are on open terraces if you're looking for a true outdoor beachside dining experience.

The boy was both very generous and thoughtful this year and got me the Pamela Love talon cuff that I have been lusting over for what seems to be a lifetime. I'm honestly so in love with it that I would sleep with it on if the claws weren't so sharp and could potentially be a small hazard for my little dog Meeko who sleeps next to me every day.

The details on this thing are just exquisite!

The boy's mom got me the most beautiful ring from Bottega Veneta. I love how organic the patterns on this ring are and how it mimics the natural creases on my hand.

Half-dozen Pacific oysters with cocktail sauce and mignonette

George's take on classic California fish tacos

Grilled local octopus with potato confit, fava beans, marinated spring onions, and fennel-saffron aioli

Chino Farms corn risotto with beans, guanciale, and a soft poached egg

Pacific Grouper with zucchini puree, ragout of artichokes, spring onion, fava beans, black olive sauce, and dried tomato relish

Prime hanger steak with carrots and mashed potatoes

Spring pea soup with asparagus, dungeness crab cake, and toasted almond-lemon cream

Maine lobster seafood stew with toasted pasta, marcona almonds, orange aioli onion-mustard jam, and red wine sauce

Freshly made doughnut holes with four dipping sauces - who needs a birthday cake when you have a spread like this!